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Negative Chatter, the Self-Esteem Killer

Lately there has been a lot of negative chatter in my head.   At first I really didn’t pay it any attention; I just pushed the chatter into the back of my head.   But the chatter became louder and louder and harder and harder to push back.   Then the unthinkable happened…I begin to listen to it and unfortunately I started to believe it. Throughout my life I have gone through cycles of low self-esteem.   The cycle would usually be triggered by an event such as being rejected by a boy when I was a teenager or not getting a job I applied for as an adult.   The cycle could last a couple of weeks or go on for a few months.   During these cycles I question everything from my looks, intelligence, and abilities.   And regardless if people tell me otherwise, I only see the worst in myself.   I am going through one of those cycles now. The negative chatter started when I begin my pre-season triathlon training in November.   I had taken too much time off from my sprint triathlon and had